no good not so bad

Hmmm. I woke up, felt bad. felt bad about feeling bad. cheered up, felt bad again. day went on. got called on feeling bad/getting mad. said im always mad. oh yeah, said he, haha. sloppy lazy digging myself a hole. too tired to climb. seaching apathetically for motivation, wishing to get hit by lightning. at least i have redbull. sugar free.